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Tuesday, 10 March 2009

♥ Time to move on..*

So... i've moved here for just over 6 months..~
i admit i really dislike this place..
I feel like this place is full with people that are fake, judgmental and arrogant..
Well maybe not this place, but just a place that i was attending..
i've decided to stop going there as i feel i don't communicate with the people very well
plus they aren't welcoming at all.. they just stare and give dirty looks...
Really feel like telling them to piss off and stop staring cos it makes me feel uncomfortable.
Don't get me wrong, some people are really nice there, but i just can't handle being in an environment thats like that..
It really did shock me that this place was full with these people..
It gave me the impression of people won't talk to you unless your educated = in university,
have a decent job, or what they class as well-off..
But it's time to move on, no need to see these people anymore, and i'm more than happy to say that.
God made us all to communicate and interact with each other no matter what race, language, skin colour we are..
So why do these people act so ignorant and judgmental of others? It's pathetic if you ask me..
Before, i looked up to these people cos i thought they were true worshippers of God.. but to ask me now..
I think they need to get a grip and grow up cos they are not so nice of a person and they need to change their ways!
It really does piss me off.. but anyway this will be my last blog here... Nothing else to say.. and i don't want some people reading it..
cos they are indeed one of the people that are fake, ignorant and judgmental.. have a nice life with that..!

Love Candy.. x

Saturday, 21 February 2009

♥ 十指緊扣..*

= 3.40am =

Still awake..~~
Got a lot on my mind just now...
Not even tired..
Wide awake..

What am i doing?

Hope..*
Dream..*
Wish..*

143.. ♥

Monday, 09 February 2009

♥ Just a slight thought..*

Lovin' this song :) ♥

So i am sitting here in class typing this..*
Hmm.. typical of me as i really cannot concentrate in class most of the time..
i always have to fidget around..*
So what has been happening in my life?
New semester now..*
Now what?
I have no idea..
I am struggling to stick to this..
As i find it so boring and so.. well.. difficult as i have to minimize my own spending money..
I have never ever done this before as you may know.. or may not know.. whatever..
I've been well off before and didn't need to worry about anything at all..
I was spoilt.. but not people around me spoiling me, but me spoiling myself
Hmmm... it was the wrong move to do so..
I look at people around me and i really don't get how some can be so arrogant and so fake.
It really don't get it..
This has always been on my mind..
Being a christian, if you don't like someone or really dislike them, you would still try and be nice and accept them
So really.. is this being fake? is this really just pushing yourself to like or accept someone which you really don't like?
Just because being a christian you are expected to?
I have no idea..
Maybe something i should ask at cell group..
Anyway i've been getting that type of vibe off some people.. and i really don't like it at all..
If you don't like me, then just tell me what's your problem..
Please don't act so nice and fake towards me cos really why be so nice to me, when deep down you dislike me?
Why not talk through the problem? Why not sort it out? Why be so fake?
i don't understand.. really.. don't understand..
Hmm.. actually something pops into mind, i remember a passage that goes along the lines of..
"Love your enemies as you love your neighbors?" Something like that..
Hmm.. well if you really are to love your enemies like you love your neighbors...
Why not just talk about the problem you have between you and the enemy..
Sigh... Confuses me..
Anyway...!
Sister is coming down for Valentines.. I am so excited to see her..~ Even though i seen her on Friday last week..
This time it's different.. we can spend some sister time together.. :) And it will be on Valentine's Day!
How Romantic..* :):):) ♥
The pig is working you see? :P
Hehe..*

My dear Akari has left back to Thailand then Japan..*
I will miss her for sure.. actually i really miss her just now..
Even though i don't see her much since i'm in Glasgow now..
But knowing that her presence is not within the UK saddens me..
Sigh...
Praise God we managed to make it to the airport, check-in and make the flight on time..!
As we were quite rushed on time!!
And poor Akari had to pay an excess amount of money for her overweight baggage..
Not a small amount i must say.. ouch..!
Anyway she must be in Thailand enjoying the nice, hot and sunny weather..!
Awww Bless.. :)

Ups and downs lately..
Well maybe not lately..
Always ups and downs should i say..
But today i feel up.. :)
I really want to go see "He's just not that into you"
Looks like a good chick flick to go and see..!
Hmmm.. and "Slumdog millionaire"
it won 7 BAFTA awards last night! Woaw! A must see film..!!
Might go see it tonight if bee is free.. hmmm...

some photos :) ♥

♥ Akari's Last Day + My Pink Tulips :) ♥

Monday, 02 February 2009

♥ Not so sure anymore..**

I think i'm going crazy...........**

Tuesday, 06 January 2009

♥ You wanna grow old with me* :)

:) I wanna grow old with you.. ♥
Hehehehe...**

== edit ==

There's always been drama happening in my life..
I don't ask for it..
It just happens......
i'm fed up listening to people that moan about things
They are such hypocrites.
For example:
They bitch about other girls taking photos of themselves, but in reality..
They do it themselves too.. So why be such a bitch about it?
Not like you have never took a picture of yourself posing and using it as your own profile pic on Facebook or Bebo..
I admit i do take pictures of myself and use it as profile pictures..
So why are girls so bitchy criticizing other people?
I do it too..
Why do girls like to criticize other girls?
I notice its especially to people they hate.
Why do we do that?
We hate them, dislike them, but does that give us the right to criticize other people's pictures just cos we hate them?
Yes, you may criticize their picture but slagging them off about posing or taking photos of themselves is not the way to go around it
Because in fact you yourself do it too..
Girls.. are weird human beings with weird emotions.
They are jealous, selfish, envious
They are emotional all the time..
They cry alot, they shout alot, they like to moan alot and they like to attention seek
Well "some" like to attention seek. Not all
Everyone in this world can be classed as a hypocrite, cos comeon, i'm sure every single one of you has criticized or judged someone on a issue or thing that you in fact.. have done yourself too..
My life right now are full with these people..
It's frightening.. its scary..
It's difficult to see who's real to you, or who's fake towards you..
Some make it very obvious, while others are so sly and shady about it..
My life is becoming a circus, full of clowns with their masks and make-up on to cover the real them.
It's difficult to tell who is naturally genuine.

2009

A year that is either make or break.
A year that is either stay or go.
A year that is either work or study.
A year that is either forgive or forget.

It's weird how some things turn out.
A year ago i was in such a horrible state i was wondering if i could ever lift my head up high again and continue with whats going on in this world..
A year later the person that ruined my life comes back and gives me an a apology, wants to start fresh and wants me to forgive him..
A year ago thats what i would've wanted. But...
A year later i've moved on.
A year later i've realized that i could literally be happy.
A year later i actually see a future and want to spend the rest of my life with that special someone thats came into my life.
I am genuinely in love.
and i'm sure he feels the same :)
Thursday will be our 9 months..~
i cant believe it's been 9 months already..~
Time passes so quick..
143 bee..~~~ :) ♥ x